Strange attractors

My life keeps on returning to same locations.

In mathematics, especially chaos math, there is a concept called strange attractors. Without going into the maths - it basically is that a function keeps on returning to the same path.

(Read more about it here: http://hypertextbook.com/chaos/21.shtml )

And I am starting to suspect that my life is running in similar paths.

Three pieces of evidence:

- When I moved to Stockholm with my then girlfriend, we lived in a suburb in the south.
My current girlfriends brother lives in the same suburb.

- I used to work at one location in the western part of Stockholm, two jobs later - I find myself working in the same area.

And now, I have just gotten a new job - guess where? Yep, the same block as in the first company that I worked with in Stockholm.

A little scary.

Lazy Good For Nothing Bum!

Yes, I am lazy.

I have neglected this blog ever since my birthday.

No, I didn´t get that depressed because of it, but other things keeps on taking my attention. Small petty things like - my job.

I started my blog when I was deep in a project, and that project is ALMOST finished. Just one more thing, and then I may reap the benefits, that is - get paid. Hopefully I will finish it tonight.

I will try to return here more regulary.


But, lazy - that I am. I can work very hard to be able to be lazy. When I have a problem that can be solved with monotonous repetetive operations, I usually spend a lot of time thinking how I can create some automatical routine that will do this for me. And sometimes - creating that routine will take me longer time, than solving the task manually.

I try to console myself with the thought that - Next Time - this will help me. But, usually - next time around - the problem is different, so I have to do it all over again.

Birthday

So, I am now 43 years old.

An odd number of years, so I don´t celebrate much. My life is usually in stages and I feel like I am in the middle of the end of one stage.

It is business as usual today.

I Love my dishwasher!

Yes, I do.

For a long, long time I didn´t have one. I washed everything by hand. With a brush and hot water running.

And of course, when I was bachelor - it sometimes piled up. And when I was living with someone - it was a source of arguments. Somehow I always ended up washing the dishes.

But, when we moved to this current apartment - I was determined that we should have a dishwasher. First we bought one from one store, after a week of waiting - it finally arrived.

Then the clumsy installer managed to turn one screw the wrong way so something broke. He promised to come back "later", but after waiting two days - I called the store and asked them to remove it. They tried to placate me, but I had lost all confidence in them.
We went to another store - and they came and installed a new one. No problem since.

So, right now it is working quietly in the background doing what I used to do. Not fast, but more efficent and the dishes are much cleaner.

And I can sit here and write this.

I do love that machine.

Introduction

So, I finally caved in - and set up my own blog.

Now, this is something I am doing in the middle of the night, instead of doing what I am supposed to do - and the reason I got up in the middle of the night, and that is to finish a project I have been having hanging over my head for six months now.

Anyway, I am an (younger) middleaged guy that is working as a computer nerd for the last twenty years. I am short, fat and ugly - so I am all yours girls. I also used to have glasses but that I took care of a couple of years ago - by doing laser surgery on them. Best thing I ever done.

Right now I am sort of out of a relationship, I managed to scare my cohabitual girlfriend away to another country. Ok, she said something about taking care of her fathers business since he is getting old, but I don´t know. Well, we talk every other week on the phone, and she has been back a couple of times, but basically I consider myself single.

I am not living with any animals either, other than the occasional bug and housefly, but I am used to living with cats. I grew up with cats, and I hade a cat friend living with me for 13 years. He was really belonging to my then girlfriend, but when we split up - he choose to stay with me. I will probably post some pictures of him at some time.

I am also kind of out of work, although I am as busy as ever. I have started my own little company, which is basically only for tax purposes and since Sweden is well known for its very low taxes - you can imagine how well that goes. I am also partly hired for another company to do the interface of their system - and I usually pops in there three or four days a week. But, I am now looking for a little better situation - that is - I would like to have a regular paycheck.

What I do best is working with databases, interface design and I am sold to the devil, that is - I am mostly using the tools that Bill Gates has put out. Nothing wrong with other companies - but I choose that path. And Adobes Photoshop of course.

At the little spare time I have - I sleep - and then I frequent these forums that has a space for opinionated people like me. The two major ones I go to - is my own - where me and a small select group of nice people chat around various subject - this is the link I have as my homepage - and it is all in Swedish. The other one is also a major Swedish forum called Flashback, which also is now starting its International version. You will find me on both. On the swedish one I am also one of 40 moderators.

Other than that I read books and listen to music. Once in a while I go out on a binge. Been a while now, though.

That is it. I better start to finish that pesky project before the customer drives to my home and holds a gun to my head.

Links
My profile on the Swedish Flashback
My profile on the International Flashback